Summer face routine

since my friend kendall shared her face routine, i thought i would share mine. but mine changes usually with the season so here is the routine that i have been using this summer.

1. aveeno positively radiant moisturizer
1b. carmex to prime my lips
2. laura mercier tinted moisturizer in porcelain
2b. MAC ccb in pearl when i feel like it (on my cheekbones)
3. nutrogena stick concealer for blemishes (fair)
3b. MUFE HD concealer under my eyes (305)
4. MAC msf natural in light
5. NARS orgasm blush
6. MUFE HD powder for oil control
7. maybelline define a brow in light brown
8. clear mascara as brow gel
9. maybe some eyeshadow with a base if im not lazy
10. cover girl lash bast in black or waterproof black for pool days
11. urban decay 24/7 in zero on my waterlines
12. sheer lipgloss or just carmex
13. spritz of pink sugar perfume by aquolina

its alot, but in the end i come out relatively flawless and natural looking.

Quick Tip #1 mascara smudge

Have you ever accidentally got mascara on a place other than your lashes?

Don't wipe it up right away or it will smear! simply wait about 30 seconds for it to dry and clear it away with a q-tip. all gone :)

shout out and ?s

hey guys! i just wanted to give a shout out to my bestie Kendall(pictured in the green scarf below) who mentioned me on her blog today. u can find her blog if u click here. she's a musician like me and totally awesome with really great advice up her sleeve, so definitely follow her!

she mentioned that i know everything about makeup. while that is sooooo not true, i still know enough. and so if there are any makeup questions out there at all DO NOT hesitate to ask.

i dont know if i want this blog to be all about music, makeup, or personal stuff, so ive been kinda just putting it all together. so if u want more makeup tips, music recs, or anything just let me know. :)

Theater Philosophy to use in everyday life

If you're early, you're on time. if you're on time, you're late. and if you're late, its unacceptable.

men are from mars

lets discuss something that all us girls and gals have on our minds constantly. or at least most of us (LGBT FTW!)

BOYS!

boys. dirty. loving. messy. inconsiderate. sexy. smelly. cute. unfortunate. funny. inappropriate. adorable. perverted. gentle. strong. self-centered. knowledgeable. stupid. and amazing. boys.

they sleep. they eat. and they think about, if not have, sex. thats the basic nature. it primal. since the days of the caveman its been programmed into their subconscious. survive, mate, preserve the human race.

i dont know about u, but im the kind of girl who likes to look cute in front of a guy i like. i like to straighten my hair and wear clothes that make me feel confident and sexy without going total slut. i dont want to fart, or burp, or trip and fall, or do anything that could remotely embarrass me.

but at the same time i try to be myself. be as honest as i can and try to be someone fake because that just leads to all kinds of problems.

i love boys. i like the ones that r good and honest but still have the balls to get dirty at night and still respect me. i love the way a guy's arms can just wrap around ur entire body in a huge hug as u bury ur face in his chest. or at least i can do that being only 5 ft tall.

sigh. cant live with 'em. can't live without 'em and all that jazz.

Once on this Island!

starting in a little under two weeks i will be starting rehearsals in a local production of Once On This Island! the show is about an island that is divided into rich and poor people. also, the poor people pray to the gods asaka(earth), agwe(water), papa(mama) ge(death), and erzulie(love). Daniel, a rich guy, crashes his car and is found by Ti Moune, a poor girl, who nurses him back to health. after he goes home she finds him in the city and becomes his mistress. but later he marries another rich woman instead of ti moune for the sake of society and ti moune dies in the street. but then she is reincarnated into a tree.

yea..........it doesnt make much sense to me either.

its supposed to be a retelling of the little mermaid, but i dont see it that much. only in the whole marrying another woman then dying part. this is the hans christian anderson version in case u hadnt realized. this aint no disney story.

i will be playing a storyteller and the understudy for ti moune. its gonna be a lot of work but i have many good friends in the show with me so i know its gonna be alot of fun! i love musical theater and cant wait to start rehearsals!

Wide Awake

Fan Fiction- definition by dictionary.com

a fictional account written by a fan of a show, movie, book, or video game to  explore themes and ideas that will not or cannot be explored via the originating  medium  basically, lets say i read twilight. and i want to write my own version  of twilight but with a twist or different scenarios. i write it and it's now a fan  fiction. well, i read some fanfiction for several movies, books, and tv shows  and i was looking at the ones for twilight and stumbled upon Wide Awake on  live journal. this is not your average twilight fanfiction. first, everyone is human. second,  the love relationships are the same(i.e. bella+edward, carlisle+esme, alice+jasper)  but the families are different. read the story to find out what i mean. third, its  written beautifully with alot of teenage angst and some sexual bits here and there. fourth, its a damn good story! keep in mind this is rated M for mature themes,  sexual situations, and foul language. bella and edward both have had traumatic experiences as children which causes them to have nightmares whenever they  sleep. they find friendship, comfort, and love in each other when helping to  keep each other wide awake. its pretty long at 52 chapters but is a really good read. although, i don't like  the ending few chapters very much. but even if you don't like twilight its still really good! it's written by angstgoddess003 and here is the link where u can find all  chapters of Wide Awake. just scroll down and the links will be on the right. and to tempt some of u, here is a snibit of one of the chapters when edward  figures out he is in love with bella. WARNING: MAKEOUT SESSION AND FOUL LANGUAGE!

And I just had to fucking do it. I tried to justify the risk with the fact that I  wanted her to have a New Years kiss like every one else. Or maybe even  because I wanted one too. But it was a fucking lie. The tugging was pulling  me to her so strongly that I couldn’t fucking take it anymore. I shot up from my chair and sprinted towards her, hugging the cover of the  darkness that we lingered on the fringe of. She didn’t see me coming, but I  knew she felt me. The electricity that she always said made me feel like home  to her. When I finally reached her I grabbed her covered arm and pulled her  back towards me into more of the darkness. She spun around and looked at me  wide eyed, but I didn’t have the time to explain. So I held her arm firmly and  pulled her away from the river and the meadow, jogging to the safe cover of  the gazebo. She remained silent as she followed hastily behind me. Once we ran up onto the platform of the dark gazebo, I spun around and pushed  her up against one of the large beams that would hide us from the sight of the  crowd. Her eyes were wide and shocked as I chanced a peek around the beam  to determine if we were seen. But everyone was too caught up in their own  kissing partners to notice anything else as the countdown reached twenty seconds.  I was kind of fucking breathless from the adrenaline of the running and sneaking  around. I glanced back at my girl who was standing in front of me pressed up  against the beam wide eyed and searching my face. I stepped closer to her until I was pressed completely against her, almost  completely relaxing as the tugging inside of me subsided with her proximity, and pulled her hood off. I let out a deep breath and smiled at my girl. The first real  smile I had felt in days. She looked so fucking confused it made me want to chuckle  at her. But instead I just took her little face in between my hands as the countdown reached fifteen. People were counting down already as I leaned my face into hers. Understanding finally dawned across her face as the crowd chanted the seconds  away. And then she fucking smiled at me. Big and full of teeth and all of her radiance  and beauty beaming right at my face, and holy fucking christ, had I missed the sight  of it. Her eyes were shining with something akin to relief and happiness, and brimming  with the unconditional love that she felt for me. But I wasn’t looking away this time.  I wanted her to have it. And I needed to do it. The tugging had subsided, but I could  still feel the need to be closer. I put my lips barely against hers and closed my eyes as the countdown reached ten,  and I could feel her fucking struggling to hold the smile back so she could kiss me right,  but it was so big that she barely could. And I just fucking smiled against her lips too. Because how could I not when she smiled like that? At me. For me. Because of me. I grabbed her face firmer, stroking her cheeks with my thumbs, and tangling my  fingers into the soft hair behind her ears and struggling to wait for the last second  to put my full force on her lips and kiss her fucking senseless to ease the tugging.  I didn’t even bother with the bullshit soft kisses. When the countdown finally hit  one, I just fucking plunged my tongue in between her smiling lips as the need to be  closer to her completely overcame me. And she accepted it with an enthusiasm  that made me weak in the knees as she dove her fingers into my hair and pulled  my face closer to deepen the kiss and push her tongue into my mouth. My  movements grew frantic as my breath sped up and I pushed against her tongue  frenziedly and pressed against her body. There were loud booming fireworks in the background and that stupid fucking  New Years song, Auld Lang Syne. But I couldn’t hear or feel anything but my  girl pressed against me. So fucking tightly that the ring nestled between my t-shirt  and my skin was pressing painfully against my scarred chest. She gripped my leather jacket with one fist, pulling me and moving her tongue  against mine just as fiercely. I pressed my body impossibly closer while I urgently pressed against her tongue  with mine. She was so fucking sandwiched between me and that beam that I  knew it had to hurt, but she just kept pulling me closer and tilting her head to  deepen the kiss further. My head was thick and fuzzy with lust as I pushed into  her hips with mine. But there was something else with it. And I was pulling and  tugging and pressing, and being too fucking rough with my girl. But I couldn’t  restrain the need to possess her completely. To just fucking crawl inside of her  and never leave. And the raw feeling that it ignited within me made me fucking whimper into her  mouth as I tugged her hair. It was something so fucking new and alien and more intense than anything I had ever felt before. I didn’t know what name to give it.  I couldn’t discern anything from the raw need to be closer to her. I had no way  of knowing how close it was to the love I had been desperately seeking, but I  knew it was on a completely new level for me. A level above simple caring and  friendship and adoration, and even lust. And I fucking basked in it. Nearly laughing into her mouth as the complete euphoria of the foreign emotion  filled me to the brim. Instead of questioning it, I just fucking poured that new  emotion into our kiss. Whatever it was, I gave it to her completely, hoping and  fucking praying she could feel it, and maybe tell me what it was and if it was  good enough for her. ................. I laughed breathlessly at the wooden beam in front of me as I held her head  to my neck tightly, still fucking basking in it. She probably thought I was fucking  insane, but she never pulled away from my neck to tell me so. I kept laughing  and panting as she trailed the kisses up my throat and to my cheeks and chin,  and just fucking everywhere. And once I had caught my breath enough to do  so, I gave her all the kisses back. Grabbing her face between my hands and  scattering tiny kisses around her little cheekbones as she still smiled at me  radiantly and tugged my hair closer. I used all my kisses and my eyes and my  smiles to finally fucking show her mine. I didn’t know what mine was yet, but  it was there. And it made her smile and chuckle around my lips with each kiss  that I planted on her overheated skin. And when I had every inch of her beautiful  face covered, I wrapped my arms around her tiny waist and held her against me  firmly. She chuckled breathlessly once again and returned my embrace with vigor. Exhausted from the kiss, I dropped my face onto her shoulder, turning so that  I could rest my lips against the warm skin of her neck, and smiled into it joyously.  It was hands down the happiest fucking moment of my entire existence. want more? click here! P.S. the blog formatted the story weird. sorry :/

I Caved #2 Sigma Brushes

disclaimer: i was not paid to do this review. these products were bought by me with my own money, and so i have the right to say whatever the hell i want in the review. :)

sigma makeup is another fairly new brand. they began by just selling brushes and brush sets but has now expanded into selling a small makeup line with accessories. their brushes are regarded as MAC comparable but way cheaper. they are even labeled with the same numbers MAC uses on their brushes.

if you would like a MAC comparison click here.

since money is tight, i bought the pink travel set which cost about $50. which has 7 brushes in it. the powder brush, duo fibre brush, large angles contour brush, concealer brush, pencil brush, tapered blending brush, and the eye shading brush.  they also send a complimentary travel sized flat foundation brush in pink, which is sold in the black set. which means you're paying about $7 per brush not counting the brush roll or the freebee brush. good deal? i think so! thats much better than paying for a MAC powder brush which costs $52 alone!

the brush roll has a flap to stop the brushes from contaminating each other and from bacteria to enter through the top. there is a zipped pouch which can hold a number of small makeup products if needed. and it closes with a magnet inside the fabric. and that is a complaint of mine that the magnet inside the fabric is not secured down and can move from the center which makes closing this brush roll a bit difficult.

honestly, all of the brushes are good. they are soft and have limited shedding. i will definitely be taking this set with me when i go to europe next summer. it has all the brushes i need. for those just getting into makeup and need some quality brushes. these are definitely an alternative to MAC. they sell several complete brush sets in black and pink with a very nifty brush roll for those who want it all.

if you already have a few MAC brushes, and money is tight, i would suggest getting the travel kit if you reeeeeally want to try these out or just wait until you rack up the dough to get the complete set. i know im saving up. :)

I'm Back!

so i know ive been gone for a few days and you're probably wondering why. well, my boyfriend broke up with me. yep. im still trying to heal but i though that a few days away from the internet would do me some good. it was a pretty bad breakup and wednesday was pretty much a cry-fest. i just needed to get everything out.

im not going to give out any details of why we broke up because thats just a little too personal to put on a blog. but i will say that although he broke my heart we are still trying to be friends, even though there is a huge elephant in the room. some of you know what i mean.

but now im back and ready to get back into my blogging. any requests?

Laser Tag

yep. that's what i did today. it was my friend's birthday and he wanted to go laser tagging, so we did. i thought it would be fun, but i had never done it before so i was completely inexperienced. i was the only girl. my boyfriend, who was there, kinda scared me when he started saying that it was like guerrilla warfare in the dark. great.

we got in and i didnt even know how to put on my vest. u turn the vest on and it gives you a gamer name like chewbacca, creeper, or the king. great. in the first game, i was on the blue team with my friends minus my bf. he went to be on the team of the 4 little boys we were playing against on the red team to make it even. in the second game, our teams were all mixed up because no one wanted to do a free-for-all.

we went in and i was totally lost. i followed my friend until i could scope out the arena to see what i was dealing with. it was dark but not pitch black and it was in black light so the white on my converses glowed. great. my bf and his friend wrote on themselves in highlighter beforehand so it would glow in the black light. i found out once we were in the game what they had written on themselves. oh teenage boys..........u can probably guess what was written and drawn on their arms..........yea.

in the arena there were lofts on both sides and a ground playing field covered in short walls and barrel things to hide behind. for fear of getting shot, i pretty much stuck in the loft both times we played. i tried to go out on the ground, but it was too easy for someone to snipe me from the lofts above. when i was on the ground i barely had time to shoot anyone because i kept getting shot at, and the guns take time to reload and then someone would shoot me again.

also, each team had a base, and if u shot the base u got points. i was too busy hiding to even find where the bases were. i still have no idea where they are. :/

i got a few shots at people which wasnt bad, and i didnt get negative points which is what happened to one of my girl friends when she played. wow. i'm a girly girl. so i kind of expected to suck at this. ehh. it was fun anyway.

we played 2 games. there were 10 people playing in all. in the first game i came in 9th. yay! in the second, i came in 10th. :(

one thing i hated though was how hot it was. everyone came out sweating buckets. ew.

afterward we played some of the arcade games that were there. i liked the car racing game and ski ball. :) we won some tickets, and so everyone was able to get a jolly rancher as a prize. woohoo.

so my verdict is........that i had a great time! and i wouldnt mind going back again because even if u suck, its still fun! although, maybe another girl on the team would be cool. im just hoping i'll get better with practice. :)

Love Never Dies :D

so i know i've been posting a bunch today so i promise this is the last one for today!

Love Never Dies. the sequel to one of the longest running, most beautiful broadway shows in history. The Phantom of The Opera by Andrew Lloyd Webber. It opened this past year at the Adelphi theater in London, England. i also heard that it will be touring in australia before it come to the US. WTF?!?! take note that this is only a rumor but i want to see this sooooooo bad with my best friend laura mentioned in the post before this one.

it stars Ramin Karimloo as the phantom and Sierra Boggess as Christine Daae. some of you might recognizer her as originating the role of Ariel in the disney production of the little mermaid. if you want to find out more info on the show click here.

some of the songs can be heard on youtube, so i have provided my 2 favs down below. please listen to these and let the passion of the songs move you like they moved me, especially with til i hear you sing. one of the most beautiful songs i've ever heard and sung by an absolutely amazing tenor with such power!

btw, its a music video so thats why hes not wearing the mask. and the volume is a little low. sry :/

Til I Hear You Sing

Love Never Dies

Josh Groban!

I LOVE JOSH GROBAN! he is such an amazing artist and hes down right sexy too!  the one thing about josh that makes him different from most of the other artists out there is that he sounds just as good live as he does on the CD. unlike some singers who if u hear them live your ears bleed (cough cough taylor swift cough cough). in my little fantasy world, im going to have a double wedding with me and Josh Groban and my best friend Laura and Michael Buble. laura, i you're reading this, BOOKATOUR!!

fav songs in no particular order:
1. you are loved (dont give up)
2. February song
3. l'ultima notte
4. lullaby (w/ ladysmith black mambazo)
5. oceano
6. per te
7. remember when it rained
8. you raise me up <3
9. imagine
10. alla luce del sole
11. the prayer
12. little drummer boy
13. angels we have heard on high
14. thankful
15. the first noel

and now for some sexy josh groban spam!!

haha <3