Bones

these past few days i have been watching every episode of Bones from seasons 2,3, and 4 that i have not seen. season 1 is crap. it took them a while to figure out how the show worked and the development of the characters. seasons 1-4 are available for free online for netflix users.

if u havent seen it go watch it! any episode! theres a bit of plot but not so much that u cant just ump right in unlike Lost. if u like house or NCIS u will like this show.

brief summary(wiki): an American crime drama television series that premiered on the Fox Network on September 13, 2005. The show is based on forensic anthropology, with each episode focusing on an FBI case file concerning the mystery behind human remains brought by FBI Special Agent Seeley Booth (David Boreanaz) to the forensic anthropologist Dr. Temperance "Bones" Brennan (Emily Deschanel). The rest of the cast includes Michaela Conlin, T. J. Thyne, Eric Millegan, Tamara Taylor and John Francis Daley.


and if u dont like these kinds of shows, please watch anyway for the sexiness of david boreanaz. *swoon*

Quick Tip #5 static hair

i have naturally curly hair and i often like to straighten it with my CHI. the straightener does something to the hair that has to do with ions and that is why your hair sometimes gets static.  there is a very quick fix for that. all your need is a dryer sheet.

take the dryer sheet, lightly pat it against your hair and run it underneath. done. static is gone.

be warned this is not a permanent fix.

hope it helps :)

Lost

just listen to it.....beautiful

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2trUP6p2COc&feature=av2e

Why?

i know some people like the chola look, but seriously..........why?.........just........why?

Back-to-School resolutions

1. Less procrastination
2. take a hell of notes in history and science
3. find where i fit in at lunch
4. find where i fit in at all
5. get back my secret hiding place
6. take control
7. stay organized and focused a la laura f.
8. dont trip down or up the stairs
9. be true to myself
10. stand up for things i believe in
11. make new friends
12. keep the old ones
13. be happy on the inside as well as the outside. no hiding.

CATS

i saw cats today. as in the show where everyone says "what the hell was that about?"

this was my first, so i was a cats virgin. it was ok.

the dancing was nice. magical mister mistoffelees was amazing! me and my other theater friends were counting his turns and there were about 26. ridiculous. we also met him the day before and he was really nice and funny.

the jellicle ball/ A.K.A the cat orgy?

victoria, the white cat, sucked. her dance solo was very poor and i was disappointed.

old deuteronomy was great. we tried to wave at him when he was onstage during the intermission but he didnt even nod back. :(

grizabella was good. she belted out memory like there was no tomorrow.

mungojerrie and rumpleteazer were hilarious!!! they both had one black jazz shoe and one bright orange jazz shoe. i now want a bright orange jazz shoe. just one. lol

rum tum tugger was ok. the girl cats swooning, however, almost made me pee my pant they were so funny.

the part with the cat who was a pirate and the siamese and the opera.....i was so confused.

overall good show. its a dance concert though and the plot is meh. for those who dont get it this is basically the plot.

imagine if all your pet cats escaped for one day a year to party down. all the cats have their own quirk. old deuteronomy, the leader, is choosing the cat to get a next life. grizabella used to be a cool cat and now shes an outcast. he chooses grizabella. she rides up in a spaceship.

if u havent seen it, go see it!

What would you do?

There are stories all the time in the paper of a person who is attacked/raped/harassed in public and no one does a thing. peaople walk by and pertend not to notice because it would take precious time out of their day to call the police. There's a movie to which i have forgotten the title where a woman is getting mugged in an alley and 7 people walk by until someone saves her.

for those theater people, in sweeney todd when judge turpin rapes lucy at the ball in front off all his guests.

more commonly, u will see a car on the side of the road or someone asking around for jumper cables and do u help them? no. in psychology, its known as the by-stander effect.

my mother did something today that no other average person would do. I am going to classes at a theater in the city and my mother comes to pick me up. she leaves extra early in case there is traffic and she was listening to the radio and heard that there was a gas leak on a street next to the theater. she called the theater to make sure they knew. they didnt. she then called the Department of Transportation to make sure they knew. they didnt.

the DOT didnt even know that there was a major gas leak. and my mother was the first to tell them. out of all the people traveling in the bustling city of atlanta. my mother told the freaking DOT and theater first.

im so proud of her, and am happy to have a mother that will do something. that will help people. i love you mommy.

Top 10 Nail Polishes

In no order except for my number 1

1. OPI Bogota Blackberry- this is my go-to color in the fall and winter. its a beautiful berry-red with gold shimmer. its discontinued and i finally found a dupe for it as Sally Hansen's Wine Not.

2. OPI Do You Lilac It?- lilac creme. gorgeous

3. OPI Pink Flamenco- go-to hot pink creme

4. OPI Lincoln Park After Dark- very very dark purple, looks black in the bottle. for my dark days.

5. China Glaze Frostbite- very intense blue, almost royal blue but a bit lighter. it has what i detect as a purple duochrome and some shimmer. brilliant.

6. China Glaze Grape Pop- darker than mid toned purple creme. its a blue purple that has much more depth as a color when worn.

7. China Glaze For Audrey- tiffany blue. nuff said.

8. China Glaze Ruby Pumps- stunning red glitter. think dorothy's shoes.

9. Sally Hansen Pacific Blue- an extremely vivid cornflower blue that really unique. true color needs to be seen in person.

10. Orly Snowcone- think of the last color but lighter, pastel, and has a little bit of grey in it.

Bonus: Fav base and top coat- seche vite top coat and ridge filling base coat. 

My Favorite Candy

SWEDISH FISH!!!!


if u have never had them before they are the red sour patch kids minus the sour. aslo in a fish shape.
they are wonderful and delicious and i'm eating them right now. yum!

RENT-in my head

every year my school does a spring musical. i love it. its important as a director to cast a show for the people that you have and i think that RENT would be an absolutely perfect musical for us this upcoming year! our administration, however, would never let us do it, even the kids version, because of the language, gay romance, and aids but a girl can dream. cast list as follows:

Mark: Brett
Roger: Conrad
Mimi: Carly
Maureen: Lucy(me)
Joanne: Kendall http://salvationandaddiction.blogspot.com/
Angel: Powell
Collins: B.J.
Benny: Jason

P.S. if u hadn't noticed, the name of my blog comes from a song(Finale B) in RENT.

Bollywood look

this is my recreation of a bollywood look done by makeupgeektv on youtube. the video which i copied from can be found here. after i watched her tutorial i knew i had to try this look out and i love it!!!

*im really pale. like disgustingly pale so just imagine this look on someone with a bit tanner skin. i also used a retoucher so my skin wouldnt look as bad as it really is. iphoto rocks my socks!

products used:
1. too faced shadow insurance
2. NYX jumbo eye pencil in french fries
3. MUFE star powder in yellow gold(i think....the label rubbed off)
4. tape
5. Burgundy eyeshadow from my 88 palette
6. bright pink from the 88 palette
7. bronzy brown form 88 palette
8. MAC vanilla eyeshadow
9. UD yeyo and MAC fascinating eyeliners
10. ardelle little black dress hot date halfsies lashes
11. l'oreal lineur intense liquid eyeliner in black
12. UD zero eyeliner
13. CG lash blast in black
14. NYX auburn lipliner
15. NYX beige and pink frost megashine lipglosses

A Very Potter Musical

at the university of michigan. genious has been uncovered in the form of a harry potter spoof musical. the entire thing and its sequel which is actually a prequel is on youtube. its is literally the funniest musical i have ever seen and ive seen avenue q. thats saying something.

please please please watch it unless you're a harry potter virgin then go read the books or see the movies then go watch the videos. they are sooooooo funnyyyyyy omg!!!!!!!!

cool? warm? skin? what? :/

if any of you have been to a MAC counter or store looking for foundation, one of the artists probably asked you if you were warm or cool toned. and u were just like uhhhh i dont know....

well im here to help :)

without any makeup on, look at your skin. your skin has either yellow or pink tones in it or u could be one of the few lucky enough to have completely neutral skin. for some its easy to tell. i am extremely pale and i blush easily so i have pink tones. my friend maria who is tan has yellow tones. if its still hard to tell, look at your veins. blue veins= pink tones. green veins= yellow tones.

now the definition between whether u are cool or warm in the MAC dictionary is a bit confusing. If your skin looks more Yellow/Olive, you are Neutral Cool or “NC”. If your skin looks more Pink, you are Neutral Warm or “NW”. It seems kinda backwards cus usually we think of pinkish skin tones as cool and yellowish skin tones as warm. The reason for this is that MAC uses the makeup artists color wheel which is pretty much the opposite of what we usually think of as cool vs. warm. An easy way to look at it is like this: Think of each MAC foundation shade as being named with either the cool or warm shade that would neutralize and balance out your skin tone. 

a more thorough explanation and the place where i paraphrased the paragraph above can be found here. and there are probably countless videos on youtube for those who want further explanation.

  

new phone!

hey everyone! i got a new phone today! i got the samsung infinity 2 in blue. it looks like the intensity if yall want a reference. i tried going online to find a pic for u guys but they dont even have the phone on the website. weird.

it has a slide out QWERTY keyboard and you dont have to get the data plan to get the phone which was why it was so cheap. every other phone i wanted, u had to pay the $30 for the data plan which wasnt in the budget.

i got it because it was a really good deal at best buy. we only paid $1.00 for it!!

right now its kinda hard to type on it and im not sure if its because the keyboard sucks or just cus im not used to it yet. im hoping its the second one cus im going to have this phone for the next 2 years. so my typing right now is a little slow but i think ill get up to speed in no time.

im a JAP.......(jewish-american princess)

im a jew. a reformed jew to be exact. i dont practice very much, as in going to services and lighting shabbat candles, but i respect my religion very, very much.

after watching movies like the devil's arithmetic, the pianist, and the boy in the striped pajamas i am so moved by my peoples struggles during the holocaust. my grandfather, who is now passed, and my uncle were survivors. its hard to believe that people so close to u, suffered so much.

some people out there still hate jews. some believe the holocaust never existed. dumb shits.

i am white. i am caucasian. i was born and raised in the USA. religion is a state of mind, a belief system. my CHOICE of religion has NO effect on if i am a bad person or not. if i am evil. i can renounce my religion and become buddhist, muslim, or fucking mormon and still be me. still caucasian. still a good person.

fuck anyone who is prejudice against jews. if u haven't noticed, jews rule hollywood, the medical industry, law firms, and broadway. stephen schwartz anyone?

but im not saying that all jews are good by any means. every religion and faction of life has their extremists. those who bomb places of worship, vandalize, and push their beliefs upon others through terror.

im just saying, like a broken record, dont judge a book by its cover. or its ideas or beliefs. :)

youtube beauty gurus

everyone asks me how i learned about makeup. i didnt go to school for it nor do i think i ever will. ive never taken a class on it besides one for special theater makeup. my honest answer is always: youtube.

for the past 4-ish years ive been learning about makeup mainly through videos on youtube. youtube calls them beauty gurus and since they gave me my inspiration, i wanted to introduce some of my favs to you all. just google their name for their youtube channel and most of them have blogs or websites.

Enkoremakeup

pursebuzz

xsparkage

petrilude

beautifulyoutv

danalajaunesse

dollface22772-nail art

julieg713

kandeejohnson

makeupbyrisa

makeupgeektv

michellephan

misschievous

monroemisfitmakeup-she hasnt posted in forever :(

pinkiecharm-reviews only

pixiwoo

queenbeeuty

temptalia-her website is beast!!!!

update

do u know what i have been doing the past 3 days???????

sleeping and watching movies in bed

i find myself staying up really late and sleeping in really late, i mean like 1 or 2 pm. its pretty bad. almost all of my friends are morning people meaning that they have to wake up by 9 or they feel like theyve wasted their day. i dont have a problem with wasting my day.

im just enjoying my summer while it lasts. soon im going to have to think about my summer reading.....yuck.

but thats pretty much all ive been doing.

today i have to clean my room because im having a friend sleep over tomorrow night. yay sarah frances!!!

until next post. :)

Quick Tip #4b lip scrub

all throughout the year my lips get chapped and flaky and gross. this is a really good trick to easily remove all that nasty flakiness.

get a little bowl/plate/cup/whatever and add a teaspoon of olive oil. (olive oil is a natural moisturizer and makeup remover that has really good ingredients for your skin). then add less than a teaspoon of sugar. eyeball it and mix it together until it creates a paste. use your finger or a toothbrush and rub this along your lips. this will exfoliate your lips and remove any dead skin cells. then wash off with water.

your lips should feel nice and smooth afterward. just apply a lip balm and go. i do this about once every 2 weeks.

gotta love natural and cheap beauty tricks!

Fairies

i've always had a fascination with fairies. i loved dressing up as one when i was little, and now i love doing fairy inspired makeup.

a few years ago, i went to dragoncon with my brother. dragoncon is a sort-of sci-fi convention held here in georgia. i loved looking at all of the art vendors and came across the work of Nene Thomas. she is my absolute favorite fairy artist out there! i bought one of her prints called frost moon and i now have it hung above my bed on the wall. the painting is absolutely beautiful!

another one of my favorite fairy artists is Jasmine Becket-Griffith. she creates "strangelings". they look cute and innocent, yet fierce and gothic. i love her style and she has many other prints besides fairies like ones based off of the wizard of oz and alice in wonderland. here is one of my favorites called Allura. 

its over :(

i love theater so much. every time i do a show, it makes me realize even more that this is what i want to do for the rest of my life.

i love meeting new people and becoming instant best friends.
i love creating inside jokes that no one else gets.
i love dancing until my legs fall off.
i love making mistakes on stage and making it look like it was supposed to happen.
i love hearing the applause after a kick-ass number.
i love helping people with their fake eyelashes.
i love taking silly pictures in the park.
i love eating in a giant circle. like a family.
i love having a place where i can get away from the rest of the world.

my show is now over. its a bittersweet ending. we have strike and cleanup tomorrow and a lock-in sometime in the next 2 weeks. after that, it will be a very long time until we will have the chance to see each other again.

i will never forget once on this island. and i know that next year will be even better!

*will post a cast picture when i can get one.

tickets!

if there is anyone reading this who lives in the north atlanta area or friggin wherever and wants to see an amazing, AMAZING show, come buy tickets for once on this island this weekend!!!!!! buy your tickets now!!!!! no sales at the door!!!!

http://www.redphoenix.org/Island.aspx

1 week left!

wow. i havent posted in nearly a week. thats so crazy! this week has just flown by so fast with rehearsals everyday.

sunday was my only day off and we open friday night. ahhhhh! we pretty much finished blocking the entire show in one weeks time(an absolute miracle in the theater world) and are about 6 hours ahead of schedule which we will need when we start to clean the show. thats means going through and fixing all the little stuff and making everything perfect. the show looks amazing and sounds incredible!

pray is the most difficult number. and the most intense. i sprained my ankle during the dance break. :( but it will be fine by showtime.

mama will provide is the funnest choreographically. we have leg-ography!

the sad tale of the beauxhommes is the funnest overall. i get to partner dance with one of the tallest guys in cast and im 5ft. lol. he's also hilariously silly!

the human heart is the most beautiful.

jeffrey(about human heart): especially in a barefoot show, there are always 2 things actors should never work with: fire and glass.

guess what ya'll are working with?

me: laughs off the fear....

we are all holding these candles in glass bowl things and are gonna blow them out at the end of the number. its going to be so beautiful!!!

come see it! order your tickets now! no sales at the door!

http://www.redphoenix.org/Island.aspx

Quick Tip #4 prep your lips

before you begin your makeup application, apply a chapstick to your lips, like carmex(love!) or plain vaseline. this will moisturize your lips while you are doing your makeup so that by the time you're ready to put on your lip products, your lips are beautiful and smooth. :)

Quick Tip #3 nail polish easy cleanup

after i finished my july 4th nails, of course i had some polish that got on my skin and cuticles. there is a really easy way to prevent that from happening, so that u dont have to go in later with nail polish remover on a q-tip and painstakingly remove everything. all u need is some vaseline and thats it!

before u begin your manicure or pedicure, rub a light layer of vaseline over your skin and cuticles close to the nail. but dont get any vaseline on the nail itself or the polish wont adhere to the nail correctly.

then go ahead with the manicure or pedicure. after your manicure or pedicure dries, if there were any mistakes, simply wipe away the vaseline with a q-tip/paper towel/cotton ball, and the polish should easily come off. or just wait until your next shower and it will come off that way.

Happy early 4th!

hey guys!
im gonna be pretty busy tomorrow with the 4th and i dont think ill have time to post so i wanted to wish everyone an early happy 4th of july!

please be careful if you're setting off fireworks! and of course drive safe.

im going to be spending my holiday with my aunt and uncle and possibly other people. how r u spending your holiday?

and of course i couldnt celebrate the 4th of july without a special nail design!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMERICA! GOD BLESS THE USA!

Quick Tip #2 tired eyes

long night of studying? partying? just couldnt sleep? now your eyes look red, puffy, and u have under eye circles beyond comprehension. u can change that with this quick tip. :)

use a concealer with a peach base under your eyes to counteract the blue tones. basic color theory. orange cancels out blue. same concept can be applied to covering redness, but thats another quick tip. 

also, use a white or flesh-toned eyeliner on your lower waterline(the little piece of skin right above your lower lashes). this will help open up your eyes and make u look more awake. 

adding a shimmery champagne or white color to your brow bone, inner corner of your eye, and upper cheekbones will also make u look more alive and alert. 

Summer face routine

since my friend kendall shared her face routine, i thought i would share mine. but mine changes usually with the season so here is the routine that i have been using this summer.

1. aveeno positively radiant moisturizer
1b. carmex to prime my lips
2. laura mercier tinted moisturizer in porcelain
2b. MAC ccb in pearl when i feel like it (on my cheekbones)
3. nutrogena stick concealer for blemishes (fair)
3b. MUFE HD concealer under my eyes (305)
4. MAC msf natural in light
5. NARS orgasm blush
6. MUFE HD powder for oil control
7. maybelline define a brow in light brown
8. clear mascara as brow gel
9. maybe some eyeshadow with a base if im not lazy
10. cover girl lash bast in black or waterproof black for pool days
11. urban decay 24/7 in zero on my waterlines
12. sheer lipgloss or just carmex
13. spritz of pink sugar perfume by aquolina

its alot, but in the end i come out relatively flawless and natural looking.

Quick Tip #1 mascara smudge

Have you ever accidentally got mascara on a place other than your lashes?

Don't wipe it up right away or it will smear! simply wait about 30 seconds for it to dry and clear it away with a q-tip. all gone :)

shout out and ?s

hey guys! i just wanted to give a shout out to my bestie Kendall(pictured in the green scarf below) who mentioned me on her blog today. u can find her blog if u click here. she's a musician like me and totally awesome with really great advice up her sleeve, so definitely follow her!

she mentioned that i know everything about makeup. while that is sooooo not true, i still know enough. and so if there are any makeup questions out there at all DO NOT hesitate to ask.

i dont know if i want this blog to be all about music, makeup, or personal stuff, so ive been kinda just putting it all together. so if u want more makeup tips, music recs, or anything just let me know. :)

Theater Philosophy to use in everyday life

If you're early, you're on time. if you're on time, you're late. and if you're late, its unacceptable.

men are from mars

lets discuss something that all us girls and gals have on our minds constantly. or at least most of us (LGBT FTW!)

BOYS!

boys. dirty. loving. messy. inconsiderate. sexy. smelly. cute. unfortunate. funny. inappropriate. adorable. perverted. gentle. strong. self-centered. knowledgeable. stupid. and amazing. boys.

they sleep. they eat. and they think about, if not have, sex. thats the basic nature. it primal. since the days of the caveman its been programmed into their subconscious. survive, mate, preserve the human race.

i dont know about u, but im the kind of girl who likes to look cute in front of a guy i like. i like to straighten my hair and wear clothes that make me feel confident and sexy without going total slut. i dont want to fart, or burp, or trip and fall, or do anything that could remotely embarrass me.

but at the same time i try to be myself. be as honest as i can and try to be someone fake because that just leads to all kinds of problems.

i love boys. i like the ones that r good and honest but still have the balls to get dirty at night and still respect me. i love the way a guy's arms can just wrap around ur entire body in a huge hug as u bury ur face in his chest. or at least i can do that being only 5 ft tall.

sigh. cant live with 'em. can't live without 'em and all that jazz.

Once on this Island!

starting in a little under two weeks i will be starting rehearsals in a local production of Once On This Island! the show is about an island that is divided into rich and poor people. also, the poor people pray to the gods asaka(earth), agwe(water), papa(mama) ge(death), and erzulie(love). Daniel, a rich guy, crashes his car and is found by Ti Moune, a poor girl, who nurses him back to health. after he goes home she finds him in the city and becomes his mistress. but later he marries another rich woman instead of ti moune for the sake of society and ti moune dies in the street. but then she is reincarnated into a tree.

yea..........it doesnt make much sense to me either.

its supposed to be a retelling of the little mermaid, but i dont see it that much. only in the whole marrying another woman then dying part. this is the hans christian anderson version in case u hadnt realized. this aint no disney story.

i will be playing a storyteller and the understudy for ti moune. its gonna be a lot of work but i have many good friends in the show with me so i know its gonna be alot of fun! i love musical theater and cant wait to start rehearsals!

Wide Awake

Fan Fiction- definition by dictionary.com

a fictional account written by a fan of a show, movie, book, or video game to  explore themes and ideas that will not or cannot be explored via the originating  medium  basically, lets say i read twilight. and i want to write my own version  of twilight but with a twist or different scenarios. i write it and it's now a fan  fiction. well, i read some fanfiction for several movies, books, and tv shows  and i was looking at the ones for twilight and stumbled upon Wide Awake on  live journal. this is not your average twilight fanfiction. first, everyone is human. second,  the love relationships are the same(i.e. bella+edward, carlisle+esme, alice+jasper)  but the families are different. read the story to find out what i mean. third, its  written beautifully with alot of teenage angst and some sexual bits here and there. fourth, its a damn good story! keep in mind this is rated M for mature themes,  sexual situations, and foul language. bella and edward both have had traumatic experiences as children which causes them to have nightmares whenever they  sleep. they find friendship, comfort, and love in each other when helping to  keep each other wide awake. its pretty long at 52 chapters but is a really good read. although, i don't like  the ending few chapters very much. but even if you don't like twilight its still really good! it's written by angstgoddess003 and here is the link where u can find all  chapters of Wide Awake. just scroll down and the links will be on the right. and to tempt some of u, here is a snibit of one of the chapters when edward  figures out he is in love with bella. WARNING: MAKEOUT SESSION AND FOUL LANGUAGE!

And I just had to fucking do it. I tried to justify the risk with the fact that I  wanted her to have a New Years kiss like every one else. Or maybe even  because I wanted one too. But it was a fucking lie. The tugging was pulling  me to her so strongly that I couldn’t fucking take it anymore. I shot up from my chair and sprinted towards her, hugging the cover of the  darkness that we lingered on the fringe of. She didn’t see me coming, but I  knew she felt me. The electricity that she always said made me feel like home  to her. When I finally reached her I grabbed her covered arm and pulled her  back towards me into more of the darkness. She spun around and looked at me  wide eyed, but I didn’t have the time to explain. So I held her arm firmly and  pulled her away from the river and the meadow, jogging to the safe cover of  the gazebo. She remained silent as she followed hastily behind me. Once we ran up onto the platform of the dark gazebo, I spun around and pushed  her up against one of the large beams that would hide us from the sight of the  crowd. Her eyes were wide and shocked as I chanced a peek around the beam  to determine if we were seen. But everyone was too caught up in their own  kissing partners to notice anything else as the countdown reached twenty seconds.  I was kind of fucking breathless from the adrenaline of the running and sneaking  around. I glanced back at my girl who was standing in front of me pressed up  against the beam wide eyed and searching my face. I stepped closer to her until I was pressed completely against her, almost  completely relaxing as the tugging inside of me subsided with her proximity, and pulled her hood off. I let out a deep breath and smiled at my girl. The first real  smile I had felt in days. She looked so fucking confused it made me want to chuckle  at her. But instead I just took her little face in between my hands as the countdown reached fifteen. People were counting down already as I leaned my face into hers. Understanding finally dawned across her face as the crowd chanted the seconds  away. And then she fucking smiled at me. Big and full of teeth and all of her radiance  and beauty beaming right at my face, and holy fucking christ, had I missed the sight  of it. Her eyes were shining with something akin to relief and happiness, and brimming  with the unconditional love that she felt for me. But I wasn’t looking away this time.  I wanted her to have it. And I needed to do it. The tugging had subsided, but I could  still feel the need to be closer. I put my lips barely against hers and closed my eyes as the countdown reached ten,  and I could feel her fucking struggling to hold the smile back so she could kiss me right,  but it was so big that she barely could. And I just fucking smiled against her lips too. Because how could I not when she smiled like that? At me. For me. Because of me. I grabbed her face firmer, stroking her cheeks with my thumbs, and tangling my  fingers into the soft hair behind her ears and struggling to wait for the last second  to put my full force on her lips and kiss her fucking senseless to ease the tugging.  I didn’t even bother with the bullshit soft kisses. When the countdown finally hit  one, I just fucking plunged my tongue in between her smiling lips as the need to be  closer to her completely overcame me. And she accepted it with an enthusiasm  that made me weak in the knees as she dove her fingers into my hair and pulled  my face closer to deepen the kiss and push her tongue into my mouth. My  movements grew frantic as my breath sped up and I pushed against her tongue  frenziedly and pressed against her body. There were loud booming fireworks in the background and that stupid fucking  New Years song, Auld Lang Syne. But I couldn’t hear or feel anything but my  girl pressed against me. So fucking tightly that the ring nestled between my t-shirt  and my skin was pressing painfully against my scarred chest. She gripped my leather jacket with one fist, pulling me and moving her tongue  against mine just as fiercely. I pressed my body impossibly closer while I urgently pressed against her tongue  with mine. She was so fucking sandwiched between me and that beam that I  knew it had to hurt, but she just kept pulling me closer and tilting her head to  deepen the kiss further. My head was thick and fuzzy with lust as I pushed into  her hips with mine. But there was something else with it. And I was pulling and  tugging and pressing, and being too fucking rough with my girl. But I couldn’t  restrain the need to possess her completely. To just fucking crawl inside of her  and never leave. And the raw feeling that it ignited within me made me fucking whimper into her  mouth as I tugged her hair. It was something so fucking new and alien and more intense than anything I had ever felt before. I didn’t know what name to give it.  I couldn’t discern anything from the raw need to be closer to her. I had no way  of knowing how close it was to the love I had been desperately seeking, but I  knew it was on a completely new level for me. A level above simple caring and  friendship and adoration, and even lust. And I fucking basked in it. Nearly laughing into her mouth as the complete euphoria of the foreign emotion  filled me to the brim. Instead of questioning it, I just fucking poured that new  emotion into our kiss. Whatever it was, I gave it to her completely, hoping and  fucking praying she could feel it, and maybe tell me what it was and if it was  good enough for her. ................. I laughed breathlessly at the wooden beam in front of me as I held her head  to my neck tightly, still fucking basking in it. She probably thought I was fucking  insane, but she never pulled away from my neck to tell me so. I kept laughing  and panting as she trailed the kisses up my throat and to my cheeks and chin,  and just fucking everywhere. And once I had caught my breath enough to do  so, I gave her all the kisses back. Grabbing her face between my hands and  scattering tiny kisses around her little cheekbones as she still smiled at me  radiantly and tugged my hair closer. I used all my kisses and my eyes and my  smiles to finally fucking show her mine. I didn’t know what mine was yet, but  it was there. And it made her smile and chuckle around my lips with each kiss  that I planted on her overheated skin. And when I had every inch of her beautiful  face covered, I wrapped my arms around her tiny waist and held her against me  firmly. She chuckled breathlessly once again and returned my embrace with vigor. Exhausted from the kiss, I dropped my face onto her shoulder, turning so that  I could rest my lips against the warm skin of her neck, and smiled into it joyously.  It was hands down the happiest fucking moment of my entire existence. want more? click here! P.S. the blog formatted the story weird. sorry :/